surprise!

Today is the day. Yeah, I think PMS caused my emotional instability a few days ago. But whatever, I'm fine now. A huge wave of requirements is approaching so I think I better start doing shit now.

Maybe after dinner. Whatever.

I am disgusting.

Taking a break from being pathetic. I'm not in the mood to subject myself to emotional torture tonight. Today was actually an okay day but I don't want to talk about it because it's really boring and uneventful. But it was okay, really. My shoes got wet but whatever.

I can't decide if I should sleep before I study or study before I sleep. Oh well. I'm hungry.

Studying my heart out

But it just gets really lonely 'cause it's three in the morning and I'm still awake which is completely my fault. It's also my fault that I don't give enough effort to get rid of my feelings for you. And I'm just really, really lonely right now and I hate myself for feeling this way and I thought my feelings have waned and maybe they have but it still sucks that I care because I know I shouldn't and all this is pointless and I'm starting to sound disgusting and I still don't know anything about Chem and I just hate my life right now. And I'm probably making a big deal out of this but I'm just scared that my feelings will intensify then I'll ruin everything just like what I always do. And this post has too many and's and I can't concentrate anymore 'cause I started thinking about this again which I shouldn't do and I started feeling again which is even worse.

You are getting fatter lol.

So am I but whatever.

And I have no idea why I still care.

Dapat kasi hindi pinag-uungkat.

This really isn't anyone else's business.