It's the time of the month once again!

Well not really. But it's coming. This makes me hate being a girl again. But whatever. I'm gonna make another list.

1. My digestive system is fucked up again. 'Cause it always gets fucked up whenever my time of the month is near. I dunno if there's some sort of correlation but whatever. It's just the way it is.

2. Even though I wasn't feeling good since like the moment I woke up, today was actually an okay day.

3. I didn't attend Hum 'cause I let roommate crush use the bathroom first. HAHAHA oh well.

3.5. ('cause I forgot to type this a while ago but I'm too lazy to edit the numbering) I played guess the color of the paper crane with Lev and Jordan. I was always the loser but whatever.

4. We didn't have Chem Lec and Lab yayy me.

5. Today was also Karen's birthday so I went to her birthday dinner. Didn't stay long though 'cause I wasn't feeling very well.

6. And this day was even made better by... reasons which I refuse to disclose.=)) HAHAHAHAHA.

7. So yeah. I'm sleeping early 'cause I'm tired.=))

I dreamt about you last night.

I am so disgusting.

I don't want to do anything productive.

So I'm just gonna make another random list. Making lists is awesome.

1. I hate Bio. I don't want to do my homework ughhh

2. I hate SocSci as well.

3. And you. ARE SO ANNOYING. LASDFKASLKDFJASLDJFALKS

4. And other you. I don't think I like you today. I hope I won't like you ever again. So you know, I can focus on more important things. I'm not saying you're not important. It's just ugh. I WANT HIGH GRADES.

5. And other other you. You are so full of yourself. And I don't know why I even care. Well, I'll probably just unfollow you. Whatever.

6. I just really don't want to do anything school-related.

7. So I'm just gonna hate everyone instead.

8. This song's been stuck in my head for like the whole day

Yuck, feelings.

I'm  home 'cause it was Friday a few hours ago. My mom fetched me which was okay 'cause I didn't have to ride the train. She even brought me baby back ribs from Kenny Roger's for dinner. Anyway, I'm just gonna make another list because all my thoughts are unrelated to each other.

1. I just realized that I missed my bed and my room in general. The mattress at my dorm is more comfortable but I dunno. Maybe it's the privacy but not really. I feel really at peace right now.

2. I woke up from a dream yesterday. I dreamt I was choking on candies which looked like little mothballs. I woke up after I coughed them out in my dream.

3. I had a decent conversation with one of my roommates. Yayy for my social skills. Even though she started the conversation.

4. Can you please not talk to me when I'm trying not to talk to you so I'll be able to perfectly contain (and hopefully eliminate) whatever feelings I have for you right now? Ugh. This is so hard. I hate feelings.

5. But I'm gonna snap out of that soon enough. So this goes out to the people I made a bet with. You're not gonna win. =)) Or not yet.:-j

6. I'm thinking of leaving my laptop at home when I go to the dorm next week because I have zero ounces of self-discipline.This is such a major distraction. I couldn't study properly when this thing is on and when I'm finally tired of the internet, I'm too tired to do anything else as well so I just end up sleeping. Maybe I'll uninstall Y!M. But I don't think I have the guts to do that either. 

7. I took this personality test because one of the people I follow on Twitter tweeted about it and I became curious. It's this Enneagram test. It classifies people into 9 different personality types. I'm type 5 wing 6. And even though it's not interesting, I'm gonna copy paste the description of my personality type 'cause this is my blog.

Fives have anxiety about the outer world and about their capacity to cope with it. Thus, they cope with their fear by withdrawing from the world. Fives become secretive, isolated loners who use their minds to penetrate into the nature of the world. Fives hope that eventually, as they understand reality on their own terms, they will be able to rejoin the world and participate in it, but they never feel they know enough to participate with total confidence. Instead, they involve themselves with increasingly complex inner worlds.

I read a more detailed description of my personality type but I don't think anyone would read it so I just copy-pasted the short version. But the point is, I was reminded once again of my difficulty in expressing my feelings. And that I'm asocial 'cause I couldn't handle emotions properly. Well, whatever. If you're curious, you could take the test here.

8. THIS SONG! (is cheesy but I like it)

And wrists that touch, it isn't much but it's enough.

So

Since when did my phone start becoming a distraction?

Fuck.

This is not good. :|

Today was...

Okay. I guess. Even though I wasn't able to attend Hum class because I slept at 3 in the morning. I was also late for Comm so whatever. I'm gonna study for the BioLec quiz in a few minutes and once again, I'm too lazy to write well-developed and cohesive paragraphs so I'm just gonna make another list.

1. Ugh. I will never sleep in BioLec class again. God, I don't know a shit about the skeletal system and I should start panicking 'cause there's a homework due and a quiz tomorrow.

2. And there's these BioLab exercises as well ///// When will this suffering end?

3.  I now stay in a dorm during weekdays. One of my roommates is really pretty. But she's like 7 years older than me and I don't like her. I just find her pretty.

4. CAN I PLEASE JUST STOP LIKING YOU? I JUST WISH I COULD. Like right now. This is too hard (not really but whatever) and distracting and I want high grades.

5. I do not understand people. I don't know if I should attribute this to my low EQ or everyone else's irrationality. Before I used to have at least a vague sense of how I should react to um different people's feelings but I seriously have no idea anymore. It's like everyone has issues with everyone else. And I don't really get what's the big deal. I'm trying to be sensitive and sympathetic but I just couldn't understand everyone's reactions to um things. And they're obviously just threatened by one another but I'm having a hard time deciding how I should react. I'm not judging them or anything 'cause I think they're my friends and all. It's just that I really don't get them!

I'm hungry. I should probably eat.

Hoping my night could be better than this in the end.

Just say when.

Today was the first day of school after Christmas Break! I was 30 minutes late for my 10 AM class 'cause I woke up at 9 and the travel time from my house to UPM is like one hour so I didn't wash my hair anymore. It's a good thing I took a bath at 11:30 last night so my hair was still clean. Anyway, we skinned one of the frogs I brought during BioLab. It was really tedious and the frogs stank like hell. Then I ate at KFC alone 'cause I had to meet up with Alyssa so I could lend her my Comm II book but Lev wanted to eat with our friends from the other block. I ordered the Fully Loaded meal even though I wasn't that hungry but I finished everything anyway. After that I went to BioLec and I'm really surprised that I was able to listen to Mr. Hallare the whole period. SocSci was next and I listened to Mr. Estacio for like 30 minutes before I started spacing out which I didn't mean to do. So I tried listening to him again but it's just so hard. I was supposed to have Math class after but I didn't want to attend so I didn't.

Anyway, I just wrote this post 'cause I'm trying to put off studying. But I'm gonna study now. Incidentally, this song has been on repeat since like after the first week of Christmas break. It's really good. Well, for me at least.